To spite his face ...
What drives a girl to suffer
the pain of being lied to
when she has the tools to buffer
and she knows the words are false?
If it’s evidence she’s wanting
… some handle on the facts …
there’s not too much trouble hunting
proof that leads to the last waltz
No man is quite so clever,
some are dumb, and that’s one fact,
And it’s really rarely ever
we’re not hep to all the schmaltz
But we stumble over “Mi amor”
and find we’ve fallen in
that deep hole without our armor
What’s with that shit impulse?
Those lyin’, cheatin’ scoundrels
pull the wool so carefully,
but we catch on to the hound’s, hell!
then ache as we convulse
So …
What drives a girl to suffer
the pain of being lied to
when she has the tools to buffer
and she knows the words are false?
Two years on a tightrope
Tensile strength’s a wondrous thing
when strung ‘tween heav’n and hell
and balancing upon a string
has often served me wellI’ve found a step in some directions
moves me toward a goal
(though a predilection for erections
leaves me less than whole … )Scampering back a step or two
toward heaven? or toward hell?
and I’m remembering what I knew …
All lessons learned too well.On one end, there’s my future
the other holds my past
but either end can injure
and both could be my lastI’ve walked the rope almost two years
between his needs and mine
broken promises and tears
unraveling the twinePossible? It never was,
with this I learned to cope,
withstanding lies and all because
our world was hung on hopeThe tensile strength is ebbing
the tightrope’s come undone
it’s loosed the complex webbing
keeping he and me as oneIt’s snapped, that rope, and left me
hanging inches from the earth
my safety net has saved me;
still in tact and know my worthThere’ll someday be another
with the strands all forged anew
Yes, there will be other lovers
and, yes, someone will be true
A collection of my short stories:
I'm in this one, too ...
And I'm in here, as well ...
Paradise Preoccupied 
This post reminds me of the time I had a relationship with a man who my intuitive sense told me test drove other models. When I confronted, the said test driver denied and indignantly accused me of blaming innocence. This went on for a bit before I realized I didn’t need any physical proof. My intuition was accurate and proof enough. I called said test driver a liar, stuck to my convictions through his repeated declarations of innocence and moved on.
In hindsight, I knew on the first date this man wasn’t the one for me, but I went for it anyway because there was something about him that I wanted. It just goes to show me that deep inside I Know what is in my best interest. Now if I would only listen to it, that is the key.
Also in hindsight, I got what I wanted out of the relationship and I learned about the power of my intuition one more time so it wasn’t all for naught.
If I could pass on a learning from this experience, it would be to tell ladies to stick by their inner knowing because it is never wrong.
Thanks for posting this piece, Sandra.
Oh! Marianne! You have SO hit the nail on the head! And you are SO not alone in having those hard lessons on the power of intuition and the consequence of ignoring our deeper self.
At the moment, there are quite a few of us facing this. Thanks much for your input …
Thankful for safety nets!
Yep!
Yes, here’s to safety nets and knowing your worth!
And not drinking that fuckin’ Kool-Aid!
I am fascinated by your honesty – the way you are able to use words in your language that we all understand. GOOD and BAD. We all live through similar experiences and we each see, hear or feel differently.
Anger is expressed by using bad language – this gives your body strong feelings that can be harmful and get you into trouble. It takes courage to THINK in the another direction that ultimately reduces pain.
MOVE and you will feel the change.
Each one of us has to sort things out, firstly, by accepting what we are feeling in the body, and secondly what we are thinking in the mind. We know that there are liars and honest people but can’t wait to find out.
Two people (material bodies) are involved in any type of agreement. Should we not give it time before committing ourselves to one spiritual force namely LOVE and two material bodies, male and female?
Every thing has two opposing forces.
That is why we are on planet earth – BUT – we could be on another planet with different thought.
Easy to talk – but GOD is with you.
Thank you.
Personally (and from my perspective and personal experience) I think most of us (men or women) intuitively know when our significant other is lying to us, oh hell forget intuitively at times we know blatantly that the other person is pants on fire.
So why do we take it? for me… cause if you love someone (or some gives you something you need/want) you hope that what you are feeling or thinking is wrong. Because one you do not want lose what you have and two. In a sense if someone you love is lying to you, you in someway feel that something has to be wrong with “us” in parts feel not good enough.
eh I think I could go on about this subject in lengths but I wont fill up your comment field 🙂
And you wonder why I put you in the “good guy” category? Really now, Bobby!
And you can fill the comments any time. Your contributions are always thoughtful, insightful and welcome …
~smiles~ Thank for the compliment Sandra 🙂
My pleasure, Bobby …